We had to be at the hospital at 10:30 and didn't leave until 5p.m. Met with a doctor, then was sent for blood work, ekg and urine test, then an xray, then to meet with the nurse, anesthesia , and finally Dr. Rastegar. It's been gloomy and raining here since we landed... makes it harder to look on the bright side when the weather is so gloomy. But I have faith... I believe... I know he will be all right. I have to make this short, He is trying to sleep .. we have to get up in five hours to be ready for the surgery. we need to be at the hospital at 6 a.m. Surgery is at 8:30a.m. It should take 4 to 5 hours, then it will take 5 to 6 hours for him to wake up . They said I will be able to see him tomorrow but not for long. Wish I had something witty to say, but truth be told.. I'm a bundle of nerves. Praying I can be strong for my brave boy tomorrow. Praying the surgery is successful, and praying the meds take away his pain. They said he shouldn't even remember tomorrow.
I'm afraid to sleep because I'm afraid I set the alarm clock wrong and won't hear it go off or maybe that I know when I fall asleep, before I know it it will be time to cut my little boy open. UGHH.. I just don't want to see him in that much pain.. and god knows if I could switch places with him I would in a heart beat.
Today when the anesthesiologist explained about the tube they will insert down his throat because they will have to collapse his lunges... Really... why hadn't I seen that in any thing I've researched. It makes sense.. but i just wasn't expecting that.. I HATE the thought of his heart not beating .. and now he won't be breathing... and in that same thought of how much I hate this I have to take a moment and say technology is amazing... thank the lord above for this technology.